To BE HONEST
Out August 21, 2018
Savannah is dreading being home alone with her overbearing mother after her sister goes off to college. But if she can just get through senior year, she’ll be able to escape to college, too. What she doesn’t count on is that her mother’s obsession with weight has only grown deeper since her appearance on an extreme weight-loss show, and now Savvy’s mom is pressuring her even harder to be constantly mindful of what she eats.
Between her mom’s diet-helicoptering, missing her sister, and worrying about her collegiate future, Savvy has enough to worry about. And then she meets George, the cute new kid at school who has insecurities of his own. As Savvy and George grow closer, they help each other discover how to live in the moment and enjoy the here and now before it disappears.
“All right, now it’s time for the three-legged race. We’re going to go in waves of five and do it bracket style. Come to me to grab your team’s rope and get prepared,” Mrs. M said.
Grace sat on the ground, joining her leg with one of her younger cousins. I suddenly felt self-conscious about the short shorts I chose to wear over my swimsuit. Imagining my jiggiling thigh having to be tied up to a stranger’s was my version of a nightmare. Would he notice the stretch marks that striped down my inner thighs? Would he be disgusted by me when he saw them?
It suddenly felt like all of the air had been pushed out of my lungs. I swayed on my feet as the ringing in my ears began. No matter how many panic attacks I had, my body always believed that it was dying. My body told me that I couldn’t catch my breath, that I was going to actually die in Sandcastle Park in my polka dotted swimsuit before I even got to eat lunch.
I plopped onto the ground and put my head between my legs, trying to catch my breath again. George’s voice played over the pounding of my heart and the ringing in my ears, but I couldn’t understand what he was saying. I squinted my eyes closed in an effort to make everything stop. My body didn’t listen.
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THE BIG F
Danielle’s plans for the future were easy to figure out… until she fails senior English and her single college application is denied. Suddenly she’s in hot water with few options, because honestly who applies to a safety school when their mom is a “college psychic”?
Determined to get her life back on track, Danielle enrolls in her local community college with a plan: pass English and get back into Ohio State—and her mother’s good graces. Romance isn’t on her radar… until she reconnects with her childhood crush, Luke. With family drama, first love and finding her own way, Danielle can’t help but feel overwhelmed. Luckily she has her friendship with the snarky and frustratingly attractive Porter, her coworker at the campus bookstore, to push her to experience new things and help keep her afloat.
Failure’s not an option this time.
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“What?” Mom asked. No one moved and the silence that hung in the air stung my ears.
“I didn’t pass English and Ohio State didn’t accept me again,” I said.
Nothing can describe the feeling of your mother’s disappointment and your cousin’s vehement hatred rolling over you all at once. The tears already fell down my face and I knew that if I didn’t leave soon my sadness and embarrassment would explode all over the dining room with no survivors in its wake. I took another look around the table before I ran upstairs.
I couldn’t face the Ohio-State-infested room, so I climbed out my window and onto my roof. I curled my arms around my legs, allowing myself to cry. Everything had finally fallen apart. Mom knew, Claire knew, and now I finally had to admit it to myself. I couldn’t pretend that it would work out or put off the discussion for another day. My failure was here, in my face, and ready to punch me in the gut repeatedly. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and dialed the one number that can solve any crisis.
“Zoe? Come pick me up? It’s an emergency.”
She was on her way before I finished my sentence.
“Martin’s first book is nothing short of amazing! You’ll laugh, cry and scream with every page as you follow Danielle and her realistic yet zany post–high-school antics. . . . The Big F deserves an A-plus for being the quirkiest, most fun-loving read of 2017 so far!” —RT Book Reviews
“A debut novel sure to resonate with high schoolers who eagerly anticipate graduation and the start of college. . . . Danielle is a savvy, likable character with whom teens will easily identify. . . . Romance fans will enjoy this fast-paced story that features an interesting set of characters and satisfying conclusion.” —School Library Journal
“‘When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.‘ I’m pretty sure that that quote epitomizes The Big F. . . . Fun, cute, and totally relatable.” —Book Allure